How Strong, How Long?
'You are so strong.' As if I had a choice. As if letting my kids drift into adulthood without fighting for their rights and their future was an option. I have been strong for 17 years. Plus 14 years. Plus 9 years. Unless you subtract the times I wasn't. The times when I hated myself for how I parented. The times I steal for myself. The times I am lazy. The times I don't really like my kids. The times I am an asshole to my kids. Those times are probably counted at time and a half. I think I must have a negative balance.